Where my Inspiration is

Today, my favorite T person who hands out the BostonNow metro reading in the morning got on the second page and was voted the "Promoter of the Month." I can't tell you what an impact that woman has had on me. When I get off the T in the morning, I really look forward to seeing her. She is always happy and smiling and her voice is so recognizable. How someone with such a low-paying, dead end job, and no money can get up every morning and be happy... now THAT is amazing. She is an inspirational person to me, honestly. I have told her this before. She is the woman who says things like, "Smile! Today is a good day- you woke up today" and "Thank God for the day" and really means them. During my healing time, recovering from an eating disorder, I have come back to what she says many times and smile. For example, today I wasn't feeling too happy until I saw her and she said that "a positive day starts by having a positive attitude" which is so true. I feel like she was sent to this earth to do this job, and touch lives in ways that perhaps only a few people realize. I hope that someday I can have such a positive outlook on things and know how to deal with the days when I DO feel like crap. For now, I look to the woman off the T for inspiration and drive.
Right now, I am missing my mom (another inspirational person to me). I find comfort in her smile and hugs and KNOW that everything will be all right. I am healing myself for myself, but also for her. She gets so sad when she sees me and I am tired of being an object of worry to her. Granted, I will always be on her mind but I don't want it to be because of an eating disorder. Wednesday, she came and we shared an awesome dinner together and a wonderful evening. She gives the best advice... I love her too much!
Tonight, I should be going to my friend JP's house with Abby for an all night drinking fest. Abby and I don't really drink that much so we are just going, to do something tonight. It should be a good time, an interesting time really.
This weekend, I need to get together some data for Monday's mini presentation and study for the MCAT's as well as look at more business things. I want to go to Barnes and Nobel or something and read up on it, perhaps even the library... we will see how much time I have.
I am at work right now, waiting for the PCR to finish and some stuff to get done. Shouldn't be too bad of a day.