Sluggish Monday Morning

I had a bit of trouble sleeping last night. It could be the stone hard mattress I sleep on every night, or perhaps it was because I had a lot on my mind.
I went out with Andrew last night. He is such a gentleman! We went and had some coffee at Peete's Coffee Shop in the square and we had great conversation. We just talked about what we like to do and what we are involved in in school. Turns out, him and I are really similar. He took a year off between Freshman and Sophomore year to do some traveling, which makes him a bit older than most Seniors, but when have I been one to discriminate with age? We ended up going back to his place, watching some television, relaxing and he drove me back to my place and even walked me to the door. He said that he is excited to take me to dinner tomorrow, and I am excited to go with him! Newbury Street??? I'm there! Plus, he did kiss me...good kisser I must say.
I got back and ended up just going to sleep. I woke up a couple of times during the night and now I am tired this morning. My body hurts- must have had a good workout yesterday. I called my mom and dished to her about all of the details of my date. She is so funny because she always wants to know everything about everything: what did he wear? was he funny? was he a gentleman? what kind of car did he drive? do you see potential? The list of questions goes on and on! But I love her to death- seriously I do. She is my best friend, my mother, my everything.
I am just a bit "blah" about the whole thing though, and I am sure you can tell. It has been a while since I felt those butterflies you are supposed to get when meeting someone special. While Andrew is special, I just don't feel those butterflies which makes me a bit apprehensive about this whole thing. I do want to go on another date to see if I feel any different. Since Joe, my ex, it has been so hard for me to be intimate with anyone. I have been open, but I just haven't really had that feeling of "oh my God, I can't WAIT to see this person again!" It scares me to think that I may not feel like that ever again. Every girl knows that that is the best feeling in the world! Plus, I am 19- aren't I supposed to have a sex drive? I really don't have one. Strange I know, but honestly I am more of an emotions type of girl than a physical type of girl. I am excited to go out to dinner with Andrew though. I just want to see him again in a more intimate setting.
So, I noticed a couple of things in my travels. First, when I was walking to the T-stop yesterday, I saw a house with a giant balloon in front of it that said, "1." There were tables set up outside, solo cups, and a quaint family bustling around to get things together. It reminded me of the times when I was little and we had family birthday parties at my YiaYia's house. At the time, I really didn't think much of it and actually, I didn't really like going to the parties as a kid- too much noise, too much family, and too much period. I suddenly got a little bit empty inside and I realized, "wow, I really wish my family still did this kind of stuff." I miss my family- not my nouno and nouna, but my REAL family: my mom, dad, brother, Popu Archie, and YiaYia Nancy. I regret not caring about all those times when my family was together. I wish that we could have a moment together again, but rarely do these occasions come up anymore. I smiled to myself and made a wish for the little baby whose birthday it was: that she would not take for granted the times with her family. I also thought, "wow, only ONE year old." That baby's life is just starting, so new! Also, I realized that that baby is going to be growing up in a world that I and my classmates are going to be running... that thought scared me a bit.
Secondly, I realized how much I hate the summer school students that are milling about Harvard Yard, acting like they are ACTUAL students there, and giving me attitude when they come in to the gym- a pet peeve really. It also gets me when Asian tourists come and basically stalk you when you are on the computer in the Science Center. They act so immature and they run around like chickens with their heads cut off. YET, they expect to get in to Harvard in the future... sickening really.
I am at work right now, waiting for our reactions to complete. I have a doctors appointment to go to at 3:30, then Drew Faust (new president of Harvard) invited people to join her today in the yard for some drinks and stuff. I will definitely go there. No gym for me today, too tired out.

Until another posting,
Smile and take care