It has been a while!

I know that it has been a while since my last post, so sorry for that! I will just write to inform you of what is going on in my life right now, rather than trying to remember the stupid things from these last few days:
This weekend I am going to RI to see my mom and my dad. I am semi-excited just because things with Bryan are going great and I know that I will be thinking of him this weekend. I just don't want to get too close, too soon like I usually do so I feel that these next 3 nights I will go without seeing him, will be beneficial for the two of us. We are going to the SOX game on Monday night which makes me soooo excited!
Bryan- he is nice, funny, thoughtful, spontaneous, understanding, gentle, and a gentleman... soooo where is the catch 22? I am just waiting for it! I think Monday's date will definitely tell me more about my feelings for him. I am on the fence a bit, but overall, I think he is a great guy and he definitely has potential to BE something to me. Kind of exciting but I am not getting my hopes up...
I have been feeling more beautiful lately. I try to tell myself that every day. I have even been feeling too thin which makes me sad sometimes. I look in the mirror and say, "gross- you need to gain weight" but instead of chiding myself for things, I am trying to just be happy with who I am and what God has given me. I will never be a swimsuit model, I can just be the best I can be with what I have. I still hold some reservations about certain foods, but I am definitely getting over them. I have been eating more, and I have not lost weight which makes me upset in my mind, but is sort of satisfying to know that I can eat more and not blow up like a balloon. I just want to be FEMININE and healthy above all. I struggle with it each day, but am slowly getting there. I am focusing my attention on other things now- business and finance mainly, and my future.
I am confident that I am getting better slowly, it is all just a process :)